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Waiting to be Heard: A Memoir by Amanda Knox – review

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When Amanda Knox first hit the news headlines almost six years ago, she came across as every middle-class parent's nightmare: a seemingly serious, intelligent student who went to Italy at an impressionable age only to fly spectacularly off the rails. The initial reports suggested she had fallen in with a disreputable crowd in Perugia who smoked drugs, slept around and dabbled in the occult, and had run so far out of control that she had participated in the brutal stabbing of her English roommate, Meredith Kercher.

The tabloids, naturally, had a field day with reports of an orgy gone wrong, of satanic rituals, and of what the judge in Knox's first murder trial ended up labelling "extreme evil". But the story struck a deeper chord, too, not least because of the peculiarly twisted version Knox presented of that old archetype, the prim young English-speaking woman who allows herself to be seduced by Italy's bounties: the food, the sunshine, the idyllic landscapes, the abundance of great art and of Mediterranean men.

Tina Brown, thinking of her own university-aged daughter, called the story a "chilling eye-opener" and all but urged her readers to lock up their daughters before another could fall victim to the same depravity. The story was eye-catching and deepy troublesome. But, we later discovered, it was also completely wrong.

Knox and her boyfriend at the time, Raffaele Sollecito (whose book, Honor Bound, I co-wrote), had been locked up before a scrap of hard evidence was found against them. The forensic evidence the police eventually brought forward could not withstand the scrutiny of independent experts. Neither the prosecutors nor the first trial judge could agree on a motive that made sense of their involvement.

It was an awful murder, but, from an investigative standpoint, it was not a complicated one. The man whose DNA was found all over the murder scene, who had a history of breaking into buildings and wielding a knife much like the one that inflicted the fatal wounds, was a troubled drifter of Ivorian origin named Rudy Guede. He was arrested in Germany three weeks after the crime, extradited, tried and found guilty.

It would have made good sense at that point for the police to admit they had made a mistake and release Knox and Sollecito. But by then their over-hasty conclusions had ignited an international firestorm, so the narrative took an abrupt U-turn. No longer an eye-catching scandal about sex, drugs and murder, it was now a monstrous miscarriage of justice. The prosecutorial frenzy fed the media frenzy, creating ghoulish public images of Knox and Sollecito that were increasingly at variance with the known facts. It took two trials and four years for the Italian court system to set them free.

It is this story – though a less sensationalist, more depressing, version – that Knox tells in her memoir, Waiting To Be Heard, a book just published in the States, but not, as things stand, to be brought out in the UK, because of our libel laws. It is, as she herself writes, about setting the record straight, about correcting the thousands of times she has been talked about – in news stories, on talkshows, in books and documentaries, and in one particularly shameful made-for-TV movie – by people "who do not know me, or who have no knowledge of the facts".

It is still the story of an innocent abroad, one who saw her year in Italy as a way to "meet maturity head-on" and discover her sexuality. Knox describes how she self-consciously experimented with casual sex and tried to become sophisticated about smoking pot. (One of her Italian roommates looked on sympathetically as she spent whole evenings struggling to roll a joint.) But she is no longer the conniving she-devil depicted in the tabloids.

She fully admits being naive, quirky, young for her age and ill-attuned to the social expectations of another culture. When she and Sollecito stumbled on the murder scene, she had no good idea of how to handle herself other than to make multiple calls to her mother in Seattle, where it was the middle of the night. Her Italian was not good enough to understand what was going on at first, and her over-trusting faith in the police led her to talk too loosely without the benefit of a translator, or a lawyer. She and Sollecito were incautious precisely because they thought they had nothing to hide. "By assuming I didn't need safeguards," she writes, "I became vulnerable."

The police caught her in a lie – she denied that she had smoked pot, then admitted it – and accused her of many other lies, ignoring her exhaustion and confusion, and constructing a case. Even after she had been arrested, she still thought she should play the good girl, doing whatever was asked of her, scarcely believing the police had anything but her best interests at heart. At one point she volunteered that her handcuffs were loose enough for her hands to wriggle free. Her captors' only response was to tighten them.

Prison forced her to change in a hurry. She became more fluent in Italian, brushed off the unwanted attentions of prison guards and the lewd jokes of her fellow prisoners, and learned to carry herself with precision and quiet authority on the few occasions she got to speak in court. Knox didn't become suicidal, she writes, but certainly wondered if she might be reduced to that if her prospects for freedom kept dimming. According to the book, she imagined slipping a grocery bag over her head, filling it with gas from a camper stove and tying it round her neck until she passed out.

Knox was not fully aware of the legal machinations swirling around her, or of the role the mass media played in her incarceration – not, that is, until her release, when paparazzi chased her from the courthouse in Perugia and she slept in a safe house selected for her by a former undercover FBI agent before flying back home. (Part of the concern, which she omits from this narrative, was the possibility that her prosecutors would find a reason to rearrest her before she left the country.)

In short, she grew up. Not in a way any of us would wish on her; not in any way she deserved. And her nightmare is not over. Italy's high court recently kicked the case back to the appeals level for a second look, so her legal expenses and her emotional exhaustion will continue to mount.

There is little doubt, given the dearth of evidence, that she will be vindicated in the end. But it is not just the Italian legal system that misjudged her. All of us who feasted on her story contributed in some way to the hysteria that did her such a disservice. Now, at last, she has been given a chance to tell it her own way.

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